Thursday, March 31, 2011

My fantasies: Rape, prostitution and others

Some of my fantasies (some darker than others), in no particular order:

  • I've been drugged and kidnapped, when I wake up I'm blindfolded and gagged and I can feel my legs and armpits are shaven, I can feel I'm wearing women's clothes. I'm tied  to a bed, facing down, with some pillows to raise my ass. I overhear my captor walks in, discussing with another man how much he'll rent him my ass for, my ass is fondled and inspected to see how much it's worth, they agree on a low price, the client lifts my skirt, pulls down my panties to my knees and rapes me.
  • I wake up in a woman's body. I'm lying on a bed, blindfolded, and my wrists are tied to the bedposts. I have no idea how I got there or how come I'm a woman. A man walks in, climbs onto the bed, and proceeds to fondle me, tear my clothes off. I plead with him in my  now girly voice, I tell him I'm not a girl and he just answers I've got tits and a pussy, eventually he's ripped all my clothes off, and he spreads my smooth shapely legs apart with his hairy, strong legs, he's much stronger than me, then he proceeds to fuck me.
  • I'm magically given the chance to spend a day as a woman, and there is some girl who knows about me and helps me. We discuss how to make me look more slutty: if fishnets, stockings or bare legs are better, what color of high heels i should wear, etc. she applies a ton of makeup on me, etc. I ask her to take some lipstick and write 'hole 4 cock' on my lower back (i wear only a skimpy top) with an arrow pointing down to my ass and to take me to the best club to get cock. Among other things, I imagine myself at one point getting fucked on all fours behind some bushes by some drunken stud.
  • Being gang raped. 
  • I wake up in a woman's body. A woman that has just been sold as a sex slave.
  • I wake up in a parallel universe where I'm a teenage girl. I'm at home, alone except for the handyman who is doing some repair work. I have no money to pay him, so he takes my virginity in lieu of payment. 
 I so wish I was her...

    Gay, tranny, something else?

    I'm not a regular gay or bisexual guy.  Because I don't fantasize that much with getting cock in my ass or mouth (though I've done both), my fantasies mostly involve having tits and pussy and getting cock in my pussy.

    I'm not a tranny. I don't want to be female for anything other than sex. I'm not interested in things like shopping, or even dressing like a girl except in preparation for sex.

    But I'm not straight. Not just because I've given blowjobs or had cock up my ass, but because my typical fantasy is something like this:


    But I don't fantasize I'm the guy.

    Introducing myself

    Hi, I'm a guy, and I used to have a girlfriend and I really liked fucking her. So far, so normal. What is more unusual is that pretty much every time I fucked her, I fantasized I was her - that I was the one spreading my legs and getting cock in my pussy. This even more so when we did bondage or role play. I bring her up because last night I had a dream - I dreamed about her, and the important bit is that the dream ended when we were both side by side, each getting fucked doggy style by a stud.

    So I'm writing this blog in part to try and understand my desires, my fantasies - and to share them with others who may feel the same.




    I don't want to fuck her body, I want to be fucked in her body.